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Hi, my name is Gudrun but please call me Himitsu. I love anything cute or bloody. Thats about it. Don't be scared to talk to me nor ask me anything.
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Just proving I'm not dead! Still stuck on the couch sick XD 
Just thought I'd give ya'll an update.

Gonna try out some new medication in two weeks time. Because the doctor might have figured out why I am suck on the couch like this. Let's just say, my brain has been running on max power for the past 10-11 years with no breaks. So I've been unable to relax for these years and now my body is sorta, exhausted.

But I'm not bored at least. Doodling on my iPad, watching YouTube and anime on my moms laptop and such as I'm stuck here: Link to my cozy couch
Buijesty tagged me and he is going to regret it soon~


1. What does your Deviantart name mean and why?
AltaicaThePokemon from Pantera Tigris Altaica, aka Siberian tiger and I love Pokemon. Kakura-GV, my fursona's name with my initials. NekoHimi is from Nekomimi, meaning cat girl, and Himi being my nickname.

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
Pokemon. Just Pokemon all the time. Fire emblem awakening, tons of anime, zelda and Pokemon.

3. How many watchers do you have now?
382

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.
I DONT KNOW THERE ARE TOO MANY

5. Or lack thereof, move along…
BOOBS

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on dA?
Sometimes, I mean I am in a few rp groups.

7. What is your most popular submission?
You were all meant to share it by NekoHimi this old thing

8. What are your favorite non-anime TV shows?
THE JEREMY KYLE SHOW

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Anatomy

10. Summer or winter?
Winter

11. Rain or Sun?
Rain is quite peaceful to me!

12. What's your favorite type of music?
I have no idea, rap pop or rock I guess.

13. PC or Mac
PC

14. Anime or Manga?
Anime, I dun like reading.

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Coke

16. Read or TV?
TV

17. How many hours a day do you spend on dA?
....most of the day

18. Name a talent.
.........is being a horrible liar a talent?

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
I dunno

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
I don't go out to eat

21. What are your top 3 favorite books (aside from manga?)?
I don't read books.

22. Wii or PlayStation?
WiiU

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands/singers.
Hopsin...that's it at the moment XD

25. Do you like Denny's?
Who?

26. What is your favorite smiley?
XD |3 |'D and ouo

27. What is your favorite type of pie?
None.

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
Three

29. Do you go on dA a lot?
Daily

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides DA?
Tumblr, twitter, Facebook, Instagram, onision.net, YouTube and tons of others.

31. Do you cosplay?
No, but if I were to.. SABER FROM FATE/ZERO

32. Fruits or sweets?
Both.

33. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
none

34. Have you skipped school?
Nope, teachers pet right here. Unless ya count sick days or such.

35. Have you been on a plane?
Yes and I hate it

36. Have you swam in an ocean?
Yes.

37. Have you been ice skating?
Two times.

38. Favorite sport?
Figure skating~ love watching it

39. Ever been on TV?
Nope.

40. Favorite salad and dressing?
Chocolate sauce on my fruit salad please

41. What do you do to relax?
Videos, lots of music, chat with friends, draw and running my fingers trough my dogs fur or listen to his heartbeat.

42. What is the last film you saw in the theatre?
Pffft forking Wall-E

43. Favorite Sandwich?
Sheep meat, ketchup, pizza condiments and cheese heated in the microwave. Tasty af!

44. If you could go anywhere in the world…
Where most if not all of my friends lives...and japan.

45. Favorite time of the day?
Night. I love nighttime, it's all dark and quiet and cooler. Love stargazing when it's possible which is not often.

46. What did you want to be when you were little?
Umm... Pizza baker.

47. What do you want to be now?
Psychologist.

48. If you could eat with one person, who would it be?
Oh she knows well who she is =u= Wouldn't say no at all~

49. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?
Haruni Suzumiya or any hyperactive character.

50. When is your birthday?
October 17th 1996

51. Favorite type of ice cream?
Chocolate or vanilla, I'm boring.

52. Last book you read?
....dog race encyclopaedia XD 

53. Which store would you max out a credit card at?
Online stores by far. TokyoOtakuMode, PlayAsia, PokeVault and Amazon.

54. Do you buy / sell / both on eBay?
Never used.

55. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
"Excuse me, but are you old enough to play this?" EVERYTIME I TRY TO BUY A 16+ GAME THEY THINK IM 14!! 

56. Favorite all time movie?
Garden of words.

57. What was your favorite show when you were a kid?
Sonic X... God what the fork was wrong with me! Oh and also totally spies.

58. What are you listening to right now?
Fate Matrix - Anime MV

59. What is the last thing you ate?
PANCAKES

60. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
White.

61. What is the first thing you notice about another person?
Height then face and then shoes. Then I listen to someone. I'm weird... 

62. Favorite sport to play?
Is sitting a sport?

63. Favorite Day of the Year?
Um.... Errrr... BLUE

64. Hugs or Kisses?
....waving. I don't like body contact, but if I had to choose. Hugs, the few people I'm comfortable around I love to cuddle with....that is just mom, dad and my brother.

65. Vanilla or Chocolate?
CHOCOLATE

66. Favorite Board Game?
Monopoly

67. Favorite smells?
Roses.

68. What inspires you?
Knowing that one day me and everyone I love will die and we have no control over it.... IM HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS AT THE MOMENT 

69. Do you have any piercings?
Nope.

70. How many siblings do you have?
A younger brother.

71. Bacon Bits or Croutons?
Bacon bits in my pancakes please.

72. Favorite Day of the Week?
Saturday.

73. Favorite phrase?
Not sure but I say "like" and "eh" a lot... And "nyon" when sitting up or such XD 

74. Favorite Restaurant?
My moms kitchen...

75. Favorite animal?
Bears.

76. Favorite thing to do outside?
Going back inside.

77. Favorite thing to do when it's raining?
The same thing I always do.

78. Favorite Disney character?
Um....errr......Winnie the Pooh?

79. Do you like coffee? If so, what is your favorite brand?
Never tasted.

80. Tag 6 people.
Him, her, them, that one, you and you over there.
This is a long journal but I would really appreciate if you read it all <3

So, not to long ago someone asked me something that got me thinking. "Himi, why do you act so happy and cheer others up so much?" While my short and simple answer was; "Why spend your life being sad?" It kinda got me thinking.

Why do I, who haven't had the best life up till now, care so much for others being happy? I mean, I lack a lot of empathy and sympathy and such. Maybe it's because I don't want to see others hit rock bottom like I did.

Now I know very few of you know my story, and I thought I would share it. Not my entire life, just the rough times and how I ended up where I am today.


At Christmas 2004, I collapsed on the floor. Not passed out, just collapsed. My joints swelled up, they looked like tennis balls. My joints hurt a lot and my mom called the doctor and we went to get a check up on the next day. No answers, just painkillers. I was so exhausted by nothing, I couldn't walk by myself. This was the worst thing that could happen to me. I loved to run around, climb tree and play. I was a hyperactive and playful kid. Then bang, hit a wall, no more. I spent the next four months on the couch, sleeping or watching TV. There was nothing I could do really.

I got back in school after a bit, and the next six years is what I call a living hell. Sure it started softly so to say. I usually just managed two hours before being picked up! I went to the doctor and hospital frequently. The next two years go as that. Go to school, get picked up when I didn't manage more. I rarely managed a whole school day.

When I was 10, 4th grade by that point, I got to join the classes for the kids who was hard of learning. That did not go well. I got tired and didn't focus good, but I learnt and knew my stuff, top grades. Anyways, later on mom got a call from the hospital in Oslo, we used to go to the one in Stavanger, Oslo is 8 hours in car from us. They want me in to be examined. So, the next whole month I spend in a hospital. The doctors suspect I might have some kind of Rheumatoid arthritis, a diagnosis that stands still to this day, and possibly CFS. The latter just because they couldn't find out what it was, and it's still a mystery.

Back home with no medication, no cure, no set-in-stone diagnosis either. My mom is quite frustrated to know what it is and understandably so. But still, back to school. The rest of 4th grade to 6th grade was though, no help and no idea what was wrong with me. I got exhausted and depressed. This is when I started going down the dark road. At the start of 6th grade I started going to a psychologist. He was one of Norways best, and he found two things. ADD and Autism. And I got help with my depression for then, and medication to help for the ADD.

By this time doctors and such got more involved with school and such. Trying to get me the best help they could. They didn't do anything to help. I went from special teacher to special teacher to home school. I ended up hating teachers, it felt like none of them wanted to understand what help I needed and why. The living hell started from 7th grade, the last year on preschool.

We go to a different school for grade 1-7 and then another one for 8-10 here in Norway before high school and college.

I get accepted into a school with experience with autistic students. Finally, some hope. I thought finally, I could get to have school again and enjoy it. So wrong. The special teachers I got were pathetic. They lied to my mom saying I didn't behave, good thing mom knows me so good. She knows I can't lie at all.
And at the start of 9th grade, when I was 13-14, it happened.

Rock bottom.

I had had enough of it all. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take the teachers, the pressure, my own life anymore. I got severely depressed, major anxiety and I got suicidal. On multiple occasions when I was home alone... I sat on the kitchen floor with a big kitchen knife in my hand. Taking my life would be so easy, slit my own throat, stab myself anything at all. What kept me from doing it. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to pet my dog anymore, I was afraid it would hurt. Yes, that is the reason why I didn't do it.

Mom took me out of school before being allowed to by the government because she couldn't bare to see me so depressed, at least that's what she told me. And I can't thank her enough for it. If she didn't, I'm afraid I might have ended up taking my own life.

Randomly browsing the internet some time later, I came across this site. DeviantART. I liked to draw so I made an account. Best decision of my life. The friends I have gotten though deviantART, everyone of you, life savers. During my time after rock bottom, my reason to wake up in the morning was knowing that there were people out there who wanted to talk with me. This has been the driving force through the down times after that too.

Nowadays I realised, I am really lucky and happy. A stressful childhood filled with adults not understanding what help I need and making school a living hell has made me determined to cheer up other people as much as I can and try to help in any way to have others go through anything as much of a hell as me. Once ya hit rock bottom things can only get better.




Thank you very much, all of you who have read though this all. I really wanted to tell you all my story and that, in the end; No illness can ruin your life, its how you decide to live with it and accept it. I used to run around like the energizer bunny, now I cant walk up the stairs without getting tired due to my illness. But I found new things I liked to do that I could manage. And now, I want others to realise the same thing, and share it. You got a friend who is sad, cheer them up or just talk to them. Let them know that you appreciate them just being there, just being able to talk to them. Who knows, it might end up saving a life in the end.
Kakura - Character sheet by NekoHimi
Kakura - Character sheet
Text reference for personality, height and more: sta.sh/010qv8c5rmgr

EDIT: Fixed color palette
EDIT2: Updated her bio completely. Link above~
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Leyawiin-Raydjihn Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav' ! Nice gallery by the way ;)
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NekoHimi Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome and thanks a lot~
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tigersylveon Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank yo for the fav!
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thank you for the fave li'l sis!
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vicfania8855 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the favs li'l sis!
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vicfania8855 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav li'l sis!
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vicfania8855 Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the favs li'l sis!
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vicfania8855 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav li'l sis!
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vicfania8855 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the favs li'l sis!  And I hope that you're feeling better :)
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NekoHimi Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Starting to get much better ^^
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